Wisdom, Peace Through Changes

                                     For the last two years I have been so blessed to be able to be both a stay at home mom and work from home full time.  It has been CRAZY but I will take the crazy! It has been so worth it to be able to be there for David from the time he came home from the hospital until now.  I havent taken one day for granted!  It has been a honor.  But things are changing.  Life changes.  Plans change. David is in need of LOTS of social interaction...even more than he is getting now through the church nursery and the few days he goes to my friends house.  So through lots of prayer for what direction the Lord is wanting to take us we have found a wonderful private Christian pre-school that he will attend five mornings a week starting in September.  It is a wonderful school that was founded by a lady whose desire was to take children with special needs and have an inclusive classroom setting with children of all abilities.  When she started the school she wanted her special needs students to be able to continue to receive all the services that they were needing while attending pre-school.  In order to do that she needed to have the city public school system to agree to provide services to children attending this pre-school even though the school is private.  So for the past twenty years that is exactly what has happened and David will be receiving services while attending there.  This is a huge praise as all his services will be paid for.  And the Lord has provided the funding for us to be able to pay for his pre-school.  Because of this gift by someone close to us we will not have to worry about his schooling.  The Lord is so good and has once again reminded us that He is Jehovah Jireh our provider!  What a blessing! 
                                As I think about this transition my heart does get a little sad.  It is a scary thing to place your child in the hands of people that you pray will take good care of him and be patient with him through his struggles.  Even though there is the fleshly fear that all parents have I am grateful for the peace that the Lord has given both Brian and I that this is place that the Lord has for David.  I get so excited to think about the strides he may take in just being in an environment that will cater to his social needs.  I pray that the Lord will put His hand on David and teach him to speak.  He isnt saying words except for Mama, Dada and No.  I so long for him to be able to tell me what he needs.  It is a daily struggle to be able to understand what he needs and my heart breaks when I know he is having a meltdown out of frustration. Sometimes it is sooo hard to tell whether his meltdown is out of frustration or just being disobedient.  That is hard.  I pray every day that the Lord would show me.  O pray that I will know what to punish and what to work through with him....how to teach him to exress his frustration. I pray that the Lord would help him to learn how to speak while he attends this school.  I pray that He will help Brian and I to know how to teach him how to communicate.  I know that this will continue to be a long journey and I pray for continued strength and wisdom as we raise him.  What I do love is that he knows that we love him unconditionally and that he feels safe. He does express that.  :)  That brings me comfort even in his times of frustration.  I pray that the Lord would continue to give me His peace and wisdom as we continue to trust Him for guidance and direction....one day, one moment at a time.  He is faithful.

James 1:5

"If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you."