I just
realized it has been about a month since my last post. Life has been so crazy
hectic! Every time I wanted to blog about more I never had time to do it. I
guess that is life with an adventurous toddler. :) Anyway, the story continues.
As you watch your child go through therapy it can be exciting, stressful,
frustrating, sad, victorious....all those emotions packed in one. Sometimes it
is hard to see the changes that the therapists see because we see our children
on a daily basis and constantly work on skills that you think they will never
master. But, I have learned to look for those successes...those small successes
that are hard to see and celebrate them as if they mastered the main skill. I
have learned to rejoice in the process of watching David excel in even the
smallest steps. For instance, when David stopped gagging and started to
actually play with food was a huge victory. He is also starting to want to eat
almost consistently with a spoon. Another victory that David just did the other
day was mimicking me. Since birth he has never clapped his hands at the same
time during fun games. The other day he started to do that! I got tears in my
eyes because it was the first time that he was "conversing" with me.
It isn’t always consistent but with each moment I just rejoice inside. Those
things that other parents take for granted are wonderful blessings and miracles
to me! He has also started to ask for a drink when I ask him if he wants one.
When he sees that I am making food he goes to his booster seat. This is huge
because all he used to do was to stand there and scream. Also, the other day he
had speech therapy and when his therapist started to leave he looked at me and
said "mama" and then came to me. That was awesome! He has said
"mama" and I know that he knows that I am his mama but that was the
first time he actually looked at me and asked for me and came to me. My heart
just overflowed with joy! Again, it may not be consistent but I rejoice in that
moment! I don’t take for granted anything that David does. Each moment and each
triumph is a gift from the Lord!
I have my days
and am thankful for those who walk this journey and remind me that it is okay.
I am grateful that the Lord has given me a support group of sorts with other
parents who are walking this same path with their children. We pray for our
children. We cry together. We laugh together. We rejoice in these moments
together. We praise the Lord together! We trust the Lord together! We have
"I'm not a mommy today/tonight" moments when we get together and NOT
talk about the struggles but instead just have fun! Those times are important.
To be able to "go on vacation" from the stress is needed to just
refresh and rejuvenate. I have learned so much from these friends about looking
for the triumphs and rejoicing and praising the Lord in those times. It has
been so important to surround myself with sisters in Christ who focus on the
Lord and seek His wisdom and will in raising our children. There is nothing
like the bond that you have in friendships that are focused around Christ!
So, I rejoice in
the fact that today is NOT one of those days! Today I am praising Jesus for all
that He is doing and will do! Today I praise Jesus for each victory! Today I
even praise Jesus for the struggles because in those struggles I see His work
that He is doing. I see His love for us. Today I praise Jesus because He has
given us a huge gift in giving us David two years ago....I can't even believe
he is already TWO! Today I thank the Lord for His goodness, faithfulness,
wisdom and strength! GOD IS GOOD!!!! :)
